I slept like a log last night which I was shocked about, as I have read that many people struggle to get off to sleep when on the drug. I was ready for bed at 9.30pm and we went to bed at 10.30pm, very early for us. I woke up at 6am to my alarm feeling utterly exhausted, for work.
I took my second pill of Duromine 15mg this morning at 6.45am. I had my smoothie again for breakfast which was yummy.
Zane bought me a red bull lastnight and I managed to hold off drink it until today, I made it to 10.30am before I drank it. Zane’s really quite useless at being actively supportive of any changes in our life style, not on purpose, but he’s just not great at helping me, or himself stay on track. I had no urges to snack until 12pm and 2.30pm when I had a mini whole grain fruit bar. They’re not the healthiest of choice, but they’re yum and satisfy my need for the taste of carbs.
I got home and felt quite down (unsure why) and lost. I wanted something to eat, but was confused by the messages my body was sending me, not hungry, hungry, not hungry, hungry. I ended up eating 2 rows of white chocolate, I didn’t even feel like it, or enjoy it, I just felt desperate to fill a need I didn’t understand.
We decided to head out for dinner to spend some nice time together, away from being in PJ’s at home, or in work gear. I also wanted to practice not making huge changes, but slight ones to what I would’ve normally ordered. I didn’t want to change my meal so much that I felt stressed about it, or wouldn’t enjoy it.
Unfortunately it was extremely windy and raining, so I didn’t get out with the twins for a walk. So I intentionally parked quite far away from the restaurant we went to, so we could get a little walk in, only about 10mins each way, but it was better than nothing, on the way back it was pouring down and bloody freezing!
6.45am(banana, 1/4cup trim milk, 1/2cup frzn berries, 2x kiwi, whey protein powder, which comes to about 500ml)
10am Red bull 355ml
2.30pm 2x mini wholegrain fruit bars
4.30pm 2 rows of white chocolate
6pm Entree- Small salad (leaves, half a tomato, 2 tiny bit of feta and a balsamic type dressing) and a bite of Zane’s garlic bread
Main- Medium seasoned and grilled eye fillet steak with mushroom sauce, steamed broccoli, cauliflower and steak fries.
Dessert- Chocolate cake with ice cream
4x 750ml bottles of water
2x glasses of water
Today went well, I didn’t anticipate feeling as tired as I was yesterday evening and didn’t think I would have these conflicting feelings as intensely as I do.Where I feel like my body and mind are talking over each other, eat, you’re not hungry, eat, you’re not hungry, eat. Make up your mind! I keep needing to remind myself that all these negative feelings are just old habits trying to hold on.